Feeling good

I am feeling good today. I have lost my first 10 lbs since joining WW on Jan 29th. Cool uh? I think so. You might not be able to tell it, but I can. It is in very small ways, but those still count. I am also proud that even though some of my losses have been small they are still a loss. I haven't had any gains yet. I know I will, but that is okay too.
I am feeling good today. Honestly that is not a feeling that I always have. Or when I have that feeling there is that little voice that says 'You know you are gonna screw up or something is gonna happen.' I am hoping that this is a feeling I will get used to. I am thinking that I am feeling this way today because of the positive changes that are going on in my life. I also think that I am feeling this way because of the vitamins I am taking and that I am eating healthier. I still haven't started exercising yet. I did find out that I can join the fitness center at work for free since I am in the new insurance program. That is a good thing. I just need to do it. I will.
This is all for now, but will post again.

Hungry

Tonight I am hungry. I have eaten supper, but probably haven't eaten all my points. I think I forget to mention that I am using weight watchers to assist in my lifestyle change. I think it is a good program because you make gradual changes. On WW you can also eat anything you want. You just have to remember that when it goes in it counts. Kind of like the saying, Once on the lips forever on the hips. There is a lady I work with who says she is on WW, but she always talks about going off of her diet because she ate a cookie or something. Because she is not one of my favorite people I always correct her and tell her she can eat anything on WW. She just irritates me. Today she asked me how to spell Caesars. I told her then she didn't think it was right so she asked someone else. They spelled it wrong. I told them both that I was right. I got accused of being like my sister Melinda. Oh well when you are right and you know it. Ain't that right sister?
A bit worried my Maggie(cat). She hasn't eaten all day. She doesn't need to lose weight.
Going to fix some popcorn. Only one point.
I forgot to mention that I have been in WW since end of January and I have lost 8.6 lbs.

A new journey

As you might have guessed by the title of my blog I am going through some changes in my life. With the loss of my brother in December it really got me thinking about things. Life mainly. What did I need to do to make my life better? What did I need to do that when it comes to the end of my time on earth I can say it has been a good journey? I feel I started making postive changes when I started going back to school and graduated, but then became stagnant. The first change I feel I need to make is to become healthier physically and that means LOSE WEIGHT. It pissed me off when I started have to take high blood pressure meds. I don't have high blood pressure. Well the 170/112 said different the day I went to the doc. I don't intend for my weight loss to be just a temporary thing. I need to get the weight off and keep it that way. That means a total lifestyle change. CHANGE-should be a four letter word. Don't like it never have, but I do know now that I can handle it.
My first weight loss change when I lost about 300 lbs. last weekend. What???? Sometimes making changes for ourselves means letting go of people or things that we have held on to for too long just because they are safe. Safe doesn't always mean good for us. I had to look at a friend relationship and say to myself, "this is not good for me." It had become a 'safe' relationship, but it was not healthy for me. Too much negativity from him. I couldn't change him, was tired of trying to justify to myself that things he said and did were okay. Well they were not, somethings went against things that I believe in deeply. I guess you can say I outgrew the relationship. That is a good thing. I guess I was still growing even when I thought I was stagnant.
I intend to use this blog to talk about things and stuff and change. I hope that it will help me to stay on track with my changes. I am going to post a pic for every 10 lbs I lose. I realize I won't be able to see a change all at once, but it will come gradual. I have a lot to lose weight wise, but a lot to gain in other ways.
I feel with the changes in my physical health will come even more positive changes in my mental health, emotional health, and spiritual health.
Enough for now.