A new journey

As you might have guessed by the title of my blog I am going through some changes in my life. With the loss of my brother in December it really got me thinking about things. Life mainly. What did I need to do to make my life better? What did I need to do that when it comes to the end of my time on earth I can say it has been a good journey? I feel I started making postive changes when I started going back to school and graduated, but then became stagnant. The first change I feel I need to make is to become healthier physically and that means LOSE WEIGHT. It pissed me off when I started have to take high blood pressure meds. I don't have high blood pressure. Well the 170/112 said different the day I went to the doc. I don't intend for my weight loss to be just a temporary thing. I need to get the weight off and keep it that way. That means a total lifestyle change. CHANGE-should be a four letter word. Don't like it never have, but I do know now that I can handle it.
My first weight loss change when I lost about 300 lbs. last weekend. What???? Sometimes making changes for ourselves means letting go of people or things that we have held on to for too long just because they are safe. Safe doesn't always mean good for us. I had to look at a friend relationship and say to myself, "this is not good for me." It had become a 'safe' relationship, but it was not healthy for me. Too much negativity from him. I couldn't change him, was tired of trying to justify to myself that things he said and did were okay. Well they were not, somethings went against things that I believe in deeply. I guess you can say I outgrew the relationship. That is a good thing. I guess I was still growing even when I thought I was stagnant.
I intend to use this blog to talk about things and stuff and change. I hope that it will help me to stay on track with my changes. I am going to post a pic for every 10 lbs I lose. I realize I won't be able to see a change all at once, but it will come gradual. I have a lot to lose weight wise, but a lot to gain in other ways.
I feel with the changes in my physical health will come even more positive changes in my mental health, emotional health, and spiritual health.
Enough for now.